76. In The Heart
ALPHA RAIDEN
My side hurt like a bitch!
But that wasn't what hurt the most.
My brain, mind, and perhaps a huge part of my heart hurt as Larisa's words sank intofaster than the bullet
could have. | was groaning in pain and close to losing my life but | knew Larisa's words would stop my heart
before the silver bullet. | was an idiot.
| clearly chose to trust and protect the wrong person. | was blinded. Heck, | was foolish.
Even my mom- my parents knew something wasn't right and they tried to protectbut I only hated them for
their genuine efforts. Now | was alone. My warriors, who | had ordered to march over many minutes before | had
to stop Larisa from killing Aurelia, were still not here for sunknown reason.
The truth was glaring- | was a useless son, man, Alpha, mate, and father.
| have failed in all aspects of my life and fallen for the tricks of the dark people that my father spent many years
fighting.
Fuck! | took us right back to the beginning.
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As | lay on the forest floor with Larisa's confession threatening every belief | ever had and the credibility of
everything | knew to be true in the past few years, my world collapsed. It wasn't shocking to see Larisa running
off after she voiced those heartbreaking words toand despite my foggy sight, | could see her deliberating as
her eyes shifted fromto where Aurelia was crouched over Jessica's body.
At that point, | could only pray that someone... anyone would show up to stop her from killing Aurelia and Kyle
who could be de-dead for all | knew.
Thankfully, Larisa ran off, her parting words echoing and causing a painful ache in my head, "It painsto see
you die for her but don't worry, she'll be dead soon as well and I'll finally get everything I've ever wanted."
It wasn't until she left that | heard Aurelia muttering incoherently. Or perhaps the silver has spread through my
body and affected my hearing just like it affected my connection to Lex. | couldn't feel my wolf nor could | feel
my legs or my tongue anymore.
So this was how it felt to be betrayed, humiliated, and maltreated by the one we trust and love?
This was what | made Aurelia endure for three years of our marriage. Although | didn't use a silver bullet, | shot
Aurelia in the heart many times just because | was foolish and blinded by infatuation and unwarranted hatred.
"| thought I had figured it out and understood my mistakes." | thought to myself while fighting the urge to stop
breathing but with every breath | took, my punctured side hurt and bleed even more. "But | was wrong. | don't
deserve another chance and Aurelia should never forgive me."
| knew that now because I'd never forgive Larisa for all she did, not even in my grave. Where | knew | would be in
a few hours.
I'd die without becoming a good
father to my kids or a good mate to the woman was destined to love and protect. I'd die without knowing what
Larisa had actually done to my parents or find out where she had been keeping them.
I'd die...
The thoughts of how | spent the past few years of my life brought tears to my eyes.
1 was a failure.
Jessica had to lose her life because | failed. She fucking put her hands in my life before she stepped out to
distract Larisa and buytto get my men.
And Kyle-
"Fuck! They are over here, guys! | found them." If the voice | heard was truly Andrew's, | couldn't confirm until he
fell on his knees beside me, tapping my face as he bellowed, "Raiden! Alpha!" Was that worry in his eyes or
relief?
| couldn't be sure. | wasn't sure about anything at the moment. Oops, except that | was going to die.
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"I'm sorry for showing up late, Raiden. Please hold on. Don't close your eyes. Don't-" Andrew begged me.
| knew he was holdingbut | felt nothing.
"Why are you just coming now?" | wanted to ask him but | failed to utter a word as my tongue becstiff.
Soon the sounds of hasty footsteps hit my aching eardrums and | guessed | winced before coughing out spurts of
blood.
"I need sof you here. We've to get the Alpha to the healers." Andrew yelled as he struggled with my weight.
Jake soon joined him and together, they both helpedto my feet despite my spinning head and blurred sight.
"You'll be alright, Alpha," Jake muttered a promise as he and Andrew balanced my weight on theirs.
However, | didn't feel like | would be alright. I could see my end and when my eyes found Aurelia who was stij
holding on to Kyle and fighting to keep Jessica's body out of the reach of sof my men, | realized that taking a
bullet for her wasn't enough to make her hurt less.
In hopes that I'd succeed in doing something right before | ceased existing, Noreathed out my last order, using
every bit of energy that | had left, right into the ears of
Larisa's loyal protector, "Save them
first. Sa-save them all."
If I was understood or not, | stopped fighting and let my eyes roll to the back of my skull, embracing the void of
nothingness... and death.